SCHOOL is something that i'm looking forward to. i miss going through physics notes and understanding awesome concepts on how things work(if you hate physics that's too bad). but the uni students around me are making me afraid of sch because they're SO STRESSED UP! :( someone described to me that apparently uni is like going thru 'A' levels a few times. lol GG.
anyway i have exactly 7 more months to ORD!
in this 7 months, i'll have:
-time to be stupid
-time to read bible
-time to disciple
-time to improve skills
-time to learn something new
-time to record music
-time to lose weight(LOL like forever.)
-and abt 3 grands to save
so it aint so bad to be still in army. i just can't imagine sch next year. but nonetheless i believe God is preparing me. Amen.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Updates
It's been ages since I last visited and scribbled something here. I think life is really seasonal. At least mine is. There are times that I feel that I really need to journal down things that are happening in my life. And after a few months of faithful writing you just disappeared. Somewhere along the way you lost your way because you were tight down with something else. You lost the habit. Now I really believe good habits are so much harder to develop. Haha anyway whatever the case, I'll try my best to update.
The past week had been crazy. I played for 3 slots for our global conference, out of which in between 2 slots I had to book in to camp. I really felt like awol-ing since my sir thought I took a full day leave. But oh well, I guess I had to choose to do the right thing then. No one actually understands the agony of travelling all the way to the extreme left corner of singapore to book in. Haha it feels like shit, really.
But then again that night I was really blessed with the last night session of the GC. The holy spirit literally flooded the entire nexus auditorium like never before. I felt so privileged to be able to serve. And guess what, it was the entire youth worship team serving in the last night of the global conference! Haha so so cool can! I can really see our team starting to impact the churches globally. Awesome man! Looking forward to more breakthroughs!
The past week had been crazy. I played for 3 slots for our global conference, out of which in between 2 slots I had to book in to camp. I really felt like awol-ing since my sir thought I took a full day leave. But oh well, I guess I had to choose to do the right thing then. No one actually understands the agony of travelling all the way to the extreme left corner of singapore to book in. Haha it feels like shit, really.
But then again that night I was really blessed with the last night session of the GC. The holy spirit literally flooded the entire nexus auditorium like never before. I felt so privileged to be able to serve. And guess what, it was the entire youth worship team serving in the last night of the global conference! Haha so so cool can! I can really see our team starting to impact the churches globally. Awesome man! Looking forward to more breakthroughs!
Monday, August 10, 2009
The Devil's Treat
The Devil's Treat
he told me that I'm all alone, he suggested that a bit of compromise is okay, because, things will somehow eventually work out, he showed me flesh, he made me believe that i can live a better life without His directions, he made me think that it's all about me, he doesn't have to teach me witchcraft or satanism, all he needs to do is to get my mind off Him, and that's child's play for him.
save me, Dad.
he told me that I'm all alone, he suggested that a bit of compromise is okay, because, things will somehow eventually work out, he showed me flesh, he made me believe that i can live a better life without His directions, he made me think that it's all about me, he doesn't have to teach me witchcraft or satanism, all he needs to do is to get my mind off Him, and that's child's play for him.
save me, Dad.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
The missing box
1 Chronicles 25:5-9
5 Amaziah called the people of Judah together and assigned them according to their families to commanders of thousands and commanders of hundreds for all Judah and Benjamin. He then mustered those twenty years old or more and found that there were three hundred thousand men ready for military service, able to handle the spear and shield. 6 He also hired a hundred thousand fighting men from Israel for a hundred talents of silver.
5 Amaziah called the people of Judah together and assigned them according to their families to commanders of thousands and commanders of hundreds for all Judah and Benjamin. He then mustered those twenty years old or more and found that there were three hundred thousand men ready for military service, able to handle the spear and shield. 6 He also hired a hundred thousand fighting men from Israel for a hundred talents of silver.
7 But a man of God came to him and said, "O king, these troops from Israel must not march with you, for the LORD is not with Israel—not with any of the people of Ephraim. 8 Even if you go and fight courageously in battle, God will overthrow you before the enemy, for God has the power to help or to overthrow."
9 Amaziah asked the man of God, "But what about the hundred talents I paid for these Israelite troops?"
The man of God replied, "The LORD can give you much more than that."
Thursday, April 16, 2009
What am I doing?
What am I doing to extend God's kingdom now?
That's the question that I used to hear a lot and think abt a lot when I was serving in my JC days. Somehow thru the years that I've been in church, this question no longer came across my mind as often as it did and should have. Recently I spent some time to think and reflect abt the things that I'm doing now. Compared to the things that I used to do back in pastoral, they are so different. Yes, we talk abt doing different things in the body of Christ to fulfil a single purpose. But somehow along the way, some ppl(myself included) have lost track of that single purpose and our hearts subtly start to grow cold and harden towards this very fundamental qns: 'What are we doing now to extend His kingdom?'
Well I guess for older believers, it's very much easier to react fast and list out one whole bunch of things that we're doing to 'extend His kingdom'. We may be serving, and what we do to serve may have extended His kingdom in one way or another, but our hearts and minds are not as engaged and focused on extending His kingdom as how much God wants us to be. In the light of that, we've started to lose track of our purpose yet again.
Recently the big leaders from Hope Bangkok did terrible terrible things, and a series of bad things, things that the Bible warned us not to do, have happened. I read the news yesterday and the headline news on the front page was 'Violent street protests raged in Bangkok'. I wondered, are they somehow related to the fall of our Bangkok church's top leadership? Are those the repercussions of the sins of our leaders? And as I look into the Bible on how the whole Israel fell when one man, the man over the entire nation, turned his back from God, I start to believe that yes they are related, 'strike the shepherd and the sheep will be scattered.' zech 13:7
Yes! I need to constantly remind myself of this question over and over again.
Is my guitar discipling extending God's kingdom?
Is my guitar playing extending God's kingdom?
Is my band-leading extending God's kingdom?
Are my words and actions in church/at home/in camp extending God's kingdom?
Are my impure/evil thoughts and motives hindering me from extending God's kingdom?
Is ________ that I'm doing for my own gain or for extending God's kingdom?
Eat the humble pie and ask yourselves that. It'll help you grow a lot.
That's the question that I used to hear a lot and think abt a lot when I was serving in my JC days. Somehow thru the years that I've been in church, this question no longer came across my mind as often as it did and should have. Recently I spent some time to think and reflect abt the things that I'm doing now. Compared to the things that I used to do back in pastoral, they are so different. Yes, we talk abt doing different things in the body of Christ to fulfil a single purpose. But somehow along the way, some ppl(myself included) have lost track of that single purpose and our hearts subtly start to grow cold and harden towards this very fundamental qns: 'What are we doing now to extend His kingdom?'
Well I guess for older believers, it's very much easier to react fast and list out one whole bunch of things that we're doing to 'extend His kingdom'. We may be serving, and what we do to serve may have extended His kingdom in one way or another, but our hearts and minds are not as engaged and focused on extending His kingdom as how much God wants us to be. In the light of that, we've started to lose track of our purpose yet again.
Recently the big leaders from Hope Bangkok did terrible terrible things, and a series of bad things, things that the Bible warned us not to do, have happened. I read the news yesterday and the headline news on the front page was 'Violent street protests raged in Bangkok'. I wondered, are they somehow related to the fall of our Bangkok church's top leadership? Are those the repercussions of the sins of our leaders? And as I look into the Bible on how the whole Israel fell when one man, the man over the entire nation, turned his back from God, I start to believe that yes they are related, 'strike the shepherd and the sheep will be scattered.' zech 13:7
Yes! I need to constantly remind myself of this question over and over again.
Is my guitar discipling extending God's kingdom?
Is my guitar playing extending God's kingdom?
Is my band-leading extending God's kingdom?
Are my words and actions in church/at home/in camp extending God's kingdom?
Are my impure/evil thoughts and motives hindering me from extending God's kingdom?
Is ________ that I'm doing for my own gain or for extending God's kingdom?
Eat the humble pie and ask yourselves that. It'll help you grow a lot.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Reliance
Last night me, puay, simon, daixuan and huiyang headed over to simon's place to attempt to record some songs for the easter short film. We were supposed to meet at 1830 hrs, but guess what, we met at 2030 hrs coz simon was held back really late in camp. By the time we reached simon's place, settled down, waited for the rough cut of the easter short film to be downloaded, it was alr 2130 hrs! But we really thank God that we still managed to write the most important song for the short film - a song abt forgiveness. And I really learnt alot from that recording session!
To write a good song when you're just an average guitar player, you'll need,
1. A keyboardist (Huiyang)
2. A lyricists and melody composer (Puaylin)
3. A good place to record (Simon's place)
4. Recording equipments (Simon)
5. An awesome singer to bring out the song (Daixuan)
6. A sustain pedal for the keyboard (apparently simon didn't have it so we'll have record the proper one another day haha)
And I tell you, the song was literally given by God. I was sitting on the shuttle bus to camp yesterday morning as usual, had a pretty rough night trying to compose songs(and nothing came out). But I guess I was relying too much on my own efforts, my own music knowledge, my own skills, and it was all abt myself last night. I told God on the bus like as if talking to a friend sitting beside me that I really need Your help. Then help came, the chords were ringing in my head, everything was so clear, I knew exactly where to play what to play. I picked up the guitar immediately after I reached office, everything fell into place like how amino acids will form up in line to produce proteins. The feeling was good, because God is really good.
And I thank God for people like puay, yang, simon and dx who were there to wrap up the song so perfectly. YAY!
More songs tonight. Jiayi's bday. Prac for svc. Chords. Blah blah. I'm gonna rely on God.
To write a good song when you're just an average guitar player, you'll need,
1. A keyboardist (Huiyang)
2. A lyricists and melody composer (Puaylin)
3. A good place to record (Simon's place)
4. Recording equipments (Simon)
5. An awesome singer to bring out the song (Daixuan)
6. A sustain pedal for the keyboard (apparently simon didn't have it so we'll have record the proper one another day haha)
And I tell you, the song was literally given by God. I was sitting on the shuttle bus to camp yesterday morning as usual, had a pretty rough night trying to compose songs(and nothing came out). But I guess I was relying too much on my own efforts, my own music knowledge, my own skills, and it was all abt myself last night. I told God on the bus like as if talking to a friend sitting beside me that I really need Your help. Then help came, the chords were ringing in my head, everything was so clear, I knew exactly where to play what to play. I picked up the guitar immediately after I reached office, everything fell into place like how amino acids will form up in line to produce proteins. The feeling was good, because God is really good.
And I thank God for people like puay, yang, simon and dx who were there to wrap up the song so perfectly. YAY!
More songs tonight. Jiayi's bday. Prac for svc. Chords. Blah blah. I'm gonna rely on God.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Goodbye 1/4
Yes ONE QUARTER OF THE YEAR IS GONE! Imagine u eating pizza, and one corner is now gone - that's the part of the year that is gone. Haha so fast right. Remember counting down to 2009? IT'S APRIL ALREADY!
Haha AND that means erm... 15 more months to ORD! (or rather ROD)
Ok la not exactly very encouraging but hell yeah 9 months sweeped by like a bullet train.
On the side note, I spent $100 this month! PURELY ON FOOD AND TRANSPORT! I didn't buy anything related to guitar and I survived. Haha! -pats back
Anyways just went to cookhouse alone and met some familiar faces. Saw alex at the cookhouse. Haha gonna miss him man. All the best in OCS! And yeah I'm gonna miss not seeing shawn at cookhouse too. But I'm really glad he survived 9 months in OCS. I guess God really pulled him through man. Throughout my 9 months of lunching at OCS dining hall, I saw many cadets came and went, some from ny, some from zhonghua, some, well I just remember faces.
Yay thank God that ame's bday yesterday was a success! Haha hope she loved the lunch and dunks! Now I have to squeeze my brain juices for Operation TWENTYONE - the QUEEN party! Haha ay this is what happens when you're an nsf in your cg. Lol and apparently I'm very lousy at birthday plannings. Help!
Haha AND that means erm... 15 more months to ORD! (or rather ROD)
Ok la not exactly very encouraging but hell yeah 9 months sweeped by like a bullet train.
On the side note, I spent $100 this month! PURELY ON FOOD AND TRANSPORT! I didn't buy anything related to guitar and I survived. Haha! -pats back
Anyways just went to cookhouse alone and met some familiar faces. Saw alex at the cookhouse. Haha gonna miss him man. All the best in OCS! And yeah I'm gonna miss not seeing shawn at cookhouse too. But I'm really glad he survived 9 months in OCS. I guess God really pulled him through man. Throughout my 9 months of lunching at OCS dining hall, I saw many cadets came and went, some from ny, some from zhonghua, some, well I just remember faces.
Yay thank God that ame's bday yesterday was a success! Haha hope she loved the lunch and dunks! Now I have to squeeze my brain juices for Operation TWENTYONE - the QUEEN party! Haha ay this is what happens when you're an nsf in your cg. Lol and apparently I'm very lousy at birthday plannings. Help!
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