What am I doing?

What am I doing to extend God's kingdom now?

That's the question that I used to hear a lot and think abt a lot when I was serving in my JC days. Somehow thru the years that I've been in church, this question no longer came across my mind as often as it did and should have. Recently I spent some time to think and reflect abt the things that I'm doing now. Compared to the things that I used to do back in pastoral, they are so different. Yes, we talk abt doing different things in the body of Christ to fulfil a single purpose. But somehow along the way, some ppl(myself included) have lost track of that single purpose and our hearts subtly start to grow cold and harden towards this very fundamental qns: 'What are we doing now to extend His kingdom?'

Well I guess for older believers, it's very much easier to react fast and list out one whole bunch of things that we're doing to 'extend His kingdom'. We may be serving, and what we do to serve may have extended His kingdom in one way or another, but our hearts and minds are not as engaged and focused on extending His kingdom as how much God wants us to be. In the light of that, we've started to lose track of our purpose yet again.

Recently the big leaders from Hope Bangkok did terrible terrible things, and a series of bad things, things that the Bible warned us not to do, have happened. I read the news yesterday and the headline news on the front page was 'Violent street protests raged in Bangkok'. I wondered, are they somehow related to the fall of our Bangkok church's top leadership? Are those the repercussions of the sins of our leaders? And as I look into the Bible on how the whole Israel fell when one man, the man over the entire nation, turned his back from God, I start to believe that yes they are related, 'strike the shepherd and the sheep will be scattered.' zech 13:7

Yes! I need to constantly remind myself of this question over and over again.

Is my guitar discipling extending God's kingdom?
Is my guitar playing extending God's kingdom?
Is my band-leading extending God's kingdom?
Are my words and actions in church/at home/in camp extending God's kingdom?
Are my impure/evil thoughts and motives hindering me from extending God's kingdom?

Is ________ that I'm doing for my own gain or for extending God's kingdom?
Eat the humble pie and ask yourselves that. It'll help you grow a lot.